JULY 16, 2006
SHAWN AND I HAVE MORE IMPORTANT MATTERS
I'm trying not to get frustrated about what just happened, but I don't understand why I keep having to explain the same things repeatedly to Shawn and my dad. I don't know if they're not listening or they're not hearing me, but they really need to start doing both, before I lose my patience entirely.
My father, at least gets it sometimes -- not the cooking thing (poor man, can't cook to save his life) -- but the Shawn and me thing. And I think he helped get the message across to Shawn, too.
To be honest, I could've gotten Shawn to dump his high-school mistake, Nikki, by myself, but in a way, I used the situation as a test with my dad as much as I did with Shawn. I knew it could only help for Shawn to hear it from my father.
I'm finding that sometimes Shawn needs the validation of other people's opinions, which my father must've finally given to him.
Now, if I could just stop my father from keeping tabs on my whereabouts that would be good, especially if I am to continue my crucial work with Dennis Ryland. I certainly can't have my father watching me like a hawk, tracking my comings and goings.
I am not a teenager and I don't want to be treated like one.
Truth be told, I'm grateful I never was a teenager, unlike Shawn, who acts like he wishes he were back in high school sneaking around with his brother's girlfriend.
I just don't know what Shawn is thinking sometimes. It's as if he momentarily forgets who he is and what he is meant to do. He is the face of this organization. He is responsible for thousands of lives. He can't be off at some sushi restaurant reliving the "good old days," which by all accounts, sounded pretty miserable to me.
Who needs that? I don't. Especially when there are so many important matters for us to attend to ... together.
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